Healing

Happy is a good place to be.  

For the last 7 months, I have faithfully gone to counseling every week.  Thanks to my amazing friend Casey for watching my kids during every single appointment, to my other incredible friend Kristina for helping me find the right counselor and for talking after every counseling appointment, to Kyle for supporting me in this and also talking through each session, and to everyone who has supported me in photography and my Etsy shop for making it financially possible.

Last week, I felt like I could take a break from counseling for a while.  So many of my broken pieces have been coming together again, and I'm finding peace.  Not much has changed as far as certain circumstances in my life, but the way I can face them and move forward has drastically improved.  It's not all magically better.  In fact, it takes a lot of hard work, but it's work that I am now strong enough to bear.

The next step is taking time each day to ponder and write in these awesome workbooks/journals I found on Amazon.  I know they will be valuable resources in my continued healing.

I still don't know what the future holds for our family.  I don't know how long my peace will last, if we'll ever get our last baby, or what other challenges will come to our family.  But I'm okay with not knowing and simply hoping for the best.  That's how I know I'm healing.